Some Ol' Stuff
I was looking back on an old blog I had before meeting you crazy folks and it reminded me of movement. Am I making any? Also, since I don't have much to share with the world right now. Here's what I had that you good folks never knew about. Happy reading.
Thursday, January 13, 2005
Commitment
i have issues with commitment. i find that i have a really hard time setting myself to one thing/ person/ look/ tasks. i have noticed that even my selection of friends is really based on having a small group of friends, each one offering some quality that the other doesn't have. wouldn't it just be easier; wouldn't i save money on hallmark cards if i just had a couple of all inclusive packaged friends...lol. If any of you all are reading this, that last line was a joke. I like variety is that so wrong.Last night, I was telling my mom about a guy friend of ours from church who has decided to man up and get married! She said, and i quote, " it's about time he settled down...and you too!"Okay, that was only irritating because first, it's hard to find anyone who can have a whole conversation. second, where do I go to meet anyone with potential? Im tired of going backwards towards the men I have already dealt with. that was a big mistake, i.e. Tenn. i am just waiting patiently for God to show him to me, whoever he is. God, please don't let him be dull and just a little sexy!i still haven't heard from the state job yet. losing patience.
posted by Ell Ess @ 6:53 AM 0 comments
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
Chanting My Mantra
Where are my fruits?I have been working like a dog since I was 17 years old and I often feel as if I don't have anything to show for it. I guess that on the flip side of that, I am only 28 and have plenty of time to sow and reap some career and financial benefits. Im getting some financial advising from a friend with that expertise and I plan to invest in the near future. I will be posting on that as I experience it. Im trying to sharpen my business sense, so I subscribe to Black Enterprise magazine. It has a lot of helpful info and gives some profitable advise. I haven't written any poetry in a while. I write the best when I am loving, as it stands, I am not.Hoping, wishing and praying that I get this job in Lansing! I need a pay increase in my life and a change of pace as well.
a poem trapped in my mindtrapped
in blotches of events
in my lifethat have no stories
just little antecdotes.
a poem is behind my eyes.
staring, wanting
to jump out but held
back by my tongue,
safeguarded by my teeth.
hidden behind my lips,
tightly sealing in secrets.
a poem aborted
by my mind lost
in blotches of events
in my life that happened
with no living proof.
posted by Ell Ess @ 9:01 AM 0 comments
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
This first day.
This being the first day of entry, I guess I want to be fully honest with the reader. Thus making all other entries valid. I haven't been excited by anything since moving out of Brooklyn. Everything is very routine or mundane. I have been keeping busy as best I can. I have obtained this underpaying job, Lord knows Im not trying to complain. It's just boring and I need some sort of excitment. I need some stimulation. I MISS NEW YORK, UUUGGGHHHH! 2004 wasn't too bad to me (with the exception of that New York thing) and 2005 is looking better. I learned in 2004 to crawl before I walk. That is really hard for a visionary such as myself. I just see myself doing so many things, it's hard to just pick one and stick with it as my mother says. I just feel/ and know that I only live once and I don't want any regrets. I want everyone to know that I am not afraid to fall down and get up again. So here I am, in this new year wiping off the dust starting some things over, improving others. Please bare with me. I am a work in progress.Peace.
posted by Ell Ess @ 9:21 AM 0 comments
Thursday, January 13, 2005
Commitment
i have issues with commitment. i find that i have a really hard time setting myself to one thing/ person/ look/ tasks. i have noticed that even my selection of friends is really based on having a small group of friends, each one offering some quality that the other doesn't have. wouldn't it just be easier; wouldn't i save money on hallmark cards if i just had a couple of all inclusive packaged friends...lol. If any of you all are reading this, that last line was a joke. I like variety is that so wrong.Last night, I was telling my mom about a guy friend of ours from church who has decided to man up and get married! She said, and i quote, " it's about time he settled down...and you too!"Okay, that was only irritating because first, it's hard to find anyone who can have a whole conversation. second, where do I go to meet anyone with potential? Im tired of going backwards towards the men I have already dealt with. that was a big mistake, i.e. Tenn. i am just waiting patiently for God to show him to me, whoever he is. God, please don't let him be dull and just a little sexy!i still haven't heard from the state job yet. losing patience.
posted by Ell Ess @ 6:53 AM 0 comments
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
Chanting My Mantra
Where are my fruits?I have been working like a dog since I was 17 years old and I often feel as if I don't have anything to show for it. I guess that on the flip side of that, I am only 28 and have plenty of time to sow and reap some career and financial benefits. Im getting some financial advising from a friend with that expertise and I plan to invest in the near future. I will be posting on that as I experience it. Im trying to sharpen my business sense, so I subscribe to Black Enterprise magazine. It has a lot of helpful info and gives some profitable advise. I haven't written any poetry in a while. I write the best when I am loving, as it stands, I am not.Hoping, wishing and praying that I get this job in Lansing! I need a pay increase in my life and a change of pace as well.
a poem trapped in my mindtrapped
in blotches of events
in my lifethat have no stories
just little antecdotes.
a poem is behind my eyes.
staring, wanting
to jump out but held
back by my tongue,
safeguarded by my teeth.
hidden behind my lips,
tightly sealing in secrets.
a poem aborted
by my mind lost
in blotches of events
in my life that happened
with no living proof.
posted by Ell Ess @ 9:01 AM 0 comments
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
This first day.
This being the first day of entry, I guess I want to be fully honest with the reader. Thus making all other entries valid. I haven't been excited by anything since moving out of Brooklyn. Everything is very routine or mundane. I have been keeping busy as best I can. I have obtained this underpaying job, Lord knows Im not trying to complain. It's just boring and I need some sort of excitment. I need some stimulation. I MISS NEW YORK, UUUGGGHHHH! 2004 wasn't too bad to me (with the exception of that New York thing) and 2005 is looking better. I learned in 2004 to crawl before I walk. That is really hard for a visionary such as myself. I just see myself doing so many things, it's hard to just pick one and stick with it as my mother says. I just feel/ and know that I only live once and I don't want any regrets. I want everyone to know that I am not afraid to fall down and get up again. So here I am, in this new year wiping off the dust starting some things over, improving others. Please bare with me. I am a work in progress.Peace.
posted by Ell Ess @ 9:21 AM 0 comments
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